I don’t look back at the past to realize my regrets and mistakes, but simply just to reminisce about the memories that used to be worthwhile.
I can’t deny, they still make me smile until this very day.
(via glayze)
It’s ironic how I seem as if I’m poking my nose into other people’s businesses all the time. I don’t intend to and I don’t intend to become a part of it, but it’s difficult when I’m always being put in the middle of every situation. First of all, it’s not my problem to begin with so I’m not the one to judge about the issue. If you want my opinion, I’ll give you my opinion and my explanation. Don’t include me in this situation because there’s no room for an additional party. For once in your life, use your own little brains for once and stop peer pressuring me to be in favor of anyone’s side. Please and thank you.
It’s not one of my best years, but better than last year’s. I’m not necessarily saying farewell because the start of the new year is pretty much a continuation of the previous day of the year, but it’s nice to reflect the year as a whole for a change and have that thought of starting anew.
It really got to me on how much I changed over the course of the year. From being depressed to becoming apathetic, it was a major achievement in my life. I learned that the depression was mainly due to nostalgia and petty issues that aren’t even worth being concerned about. I also went through this huge cycle of friends and I think I finally found the solid ones. In addition, I experienced events or things I thought I would never experience until my later years, but I guess I grew up earlier than expected. I don’t mind because I feel a little more prepared and aware for whatever that comes at me, but I don’t want to rush my life to that extent where I wouldn’t have any fond memories of my teenage years. Although I barely accomplished any of my resolutions, I was able to set my priorities straight. I like how I have good time management even with procrastination, because it proves to me that I can be well-off in the real world without my mother reminding me every second to get my work done.
This year went by a breeze and I loved every second of it. Although every second wasn’t wonderful, I love the fact that I was able to cope with it until this very day. I’m so thankful for learning, experiencing, and overcoming so much in this year. The year’s not over yet, but thank you 2010 for being one of the better years!
It was a simple yet complex month, but I’m glad it’s almost over and done with. Being overworked and exhausted in the beginning was well-rewarded because I was able to relax and have fun as winter break began. The ending of December feels like it has the biggest impact in my life than any other month, not just because it’s the end of the year, but because this month has one of the greatest effects due to all the climax building up from the previous months.
It’s funny how I barely even dwell about problems now. For instance, I don’t have that sudden urge to fix it anymore, so I leave it as it is or the way he/she wants it to be. I learned that by doing so, it helps lessen the commotion on the other side. Why take part of something that won’t budge? I don’t care, so I don’t bother. But hey, I’m all ears.
This Christmas is unlike any other year. I was grinning so hard when I was getting out of bed this morning due to all the text messages of “Good morning” and “Merry Christmas” from close or distant friends and people I hardly even know or talk to. Instead of a decorated tree and wrapped presents, my family and I celebrated Christmas by spending the whole day and night with usual family members and distant relatives I never even seen before. I received money as a gift and I was able to socialize with all of them. I know it doesn’t sound as fun as it seems, but it’s difficult to gather people around in my family because everyone would always be too stubborn to settle their differences and put their matters aside. Even with heavy rainfall and cold weather, Christmas is perfect.
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Merry Christmas! I hope all of you have a great one. (:
(Source: arturomadrid, via geraldinee)
Funny how someone can be so important to you, when you mean so little to them.
I am so fascinated. ♥
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I don’t understand why this post got deleted before. D:
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(Source: mandaflewaway, via andysitsonyou)
Brighter earlier in the day and darker earlier in the night, the days feel so prolonged and sometimes too short for my liking. With the season becoming much colder, I have this idiosyncrasy to crave for somebody to be with me at all times. Not someone special or any distinctive person, I just need a certain amount of people who would suppress any thoughts of loneliness that evokes internally.
The majority of this month was well-spent with my family and my relatives. I have created stronger bonds with them ever since I have gradually stopped pulling all-nighters in the weekend outside. I like how the conversations are always elaborated and there are no longer any awkward one-word responses. It just puts a smile to my face at the thought of all the family matters being worked out and my relatives no longer being our enemies.
I have finally embraced the fact that the economy has took a downward toll in the world. Even though I’m more aware of the issues going on, I feel as if all I can do is just watch at the sidelines and wait for something to occur. I am in desperate need for a signal, a signal to forewarn me of whatever - the good, the bad, just something. Sometimes I wish world peace did exist, but then again other problems would sprout about. Utopia really is an ideal.
(Source: nare-bear, via marjohernandiz)
Even though I possess childlike qualities, it finally occurred to me that I am no longer a child anymore. The problematic issues that arise day by day are more consequential than ever before. I feel pressure induced from all sides - family, friends, and even self. Due to the high expectations and goals, I am burdened with everything weighing down on my shoulders. I am expected to be my best and try my hardest, but when is it ever enough? My efforts always come unnoticed and their ideals are too unrealistic to manage. Every deadline, every obligation, and every additional goal I hope to succeed might just further contribute to my failures. This thought makes me feel restless, but in a strange sense motivates me to accomplish what I wish to achieve. From now on, I am actually going to be more attentive of my future. I don’t know what the future holds but the future isn’t an overwhelming place anymore.
When I got on the bus last night to head home, I encountered a bald man that looks similar to Freddy Krueger in the recent A Nightmare On Elm’s Street movie. Something about him gave me the jitters so I moved away a little and he began to consistently stare at me with his body unmoving and his eyes unblinking. Being apprehensive, I decided to take a seat in the middle next to a blond lady. Freddy Krueger (the bald man) walked to the middle in front of where I was seated and situated himself behind me. I leaned forward as he felt on my hair and the blond lady sitting next to me moved to the front. Because of the fact that I leaned forward, he stretched his legs in an attempt to kick my boots from behind. I quickly walked to the front of the bus, seating myself between the blond lady and this other woman. A kind businessman who witnessed what had just occurred, followed me to where I was sitting and said, “This guy is unbelievable. He has no right to do that to you. I’ll make sure you’re safe okay? What stop do you get off at?” I sat there speechless, too blank and terrified to speak. “I’m not going to do anything to you okay? I’ll stand in front of you so he won’t be able to interact with you. If he doesn’t get off before you get off and he follows you out, I’ll bring you to your destination,” the businessman said. “Yeah in fact, I’ll bring you too.” the other woman added. Nodding hesitatingly, I replied softly and gave a small thanks. Freddy Krueger walks to the front of the bus and tries to interact with me in some way like attempting to have his eyes locked onto mine but completely fails because of the three people surrounding me. Surrendering, he gets off at the next stop and subsequently knocks on the window outside. The bus driver rapidly closes both doors of the bus and drives away in order to prevent the bald guy from getting on again. Thanking everyone, I arrived home safe and sound.
